i wrote this last night i was in a weird mood....and thats when i decided to start a blog. my life is actually interesting...first off im young and my family is crazy!!!!!! life has not been easy for me...but the more that i write the more yuu will find out.

so right now it is 3:30 am and i am sitting here alone...without a mom because she run away with her boyfriend to Vancouver ......without anything...nothing...i have a boyfriend in the next room..but am i with him right now.....no.......i live out of bags full of my clothes and sleep on a mattress on the floor....i have no income no job....no brains.....no education.......i haven't finished my community service......so im going to jail..........and in the end i have no one to tell, how i feel.......im in this big world full of people and i feel so alone...yuu can sit me in a room with 20 people and i will always feel alone.....oh wait my "boyfriend is up and my duty calls have to go rub his knee....yuu no i never took myself as that girl that was gunna be told what to do all the time....the one that stays home and cooks and makes everyone happy without being happy myself. im a strong headed person and people just cant tell me what to do it dosent work in my eyes........after all the bull shit i have put up with in life after everything that i have tried so hard to do and failed....it all comes down to this......i have bags full of clothes and thats it. after all this bullshit i still haven't gotten anything out of it......like fuck man